Freak out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Out of sudden, I just feel really freaking out about employment...!

Since graduation from NYP, I've always set my goal as account assistant. But I've yet to really end up in a position of accounts assistant...so far, I have been a tax officer, a technical accounts administrator (it's totally unrelated to accounts, reinsurance co.) and finance assistant (but my duty is processing invoices, other than that I feel I'm more an admin support staff)...now I tried to apply for accounts assistant role again... Went for 3 interviews, both interviewers asked me whether I mind being an account assistant when I will soon hold an ACCA qualifications. I said that I don't mind but until rejected all 2 offers for different reasons.

• US MNC: Pay is too low unable to compensate for the higher F&B cost at Orchard and need to work on alt Saturdays. Additionally, I'm most junior accounting staff there. Need to order things for pantry, etc. (Sounds like office girl). 
  
• Statutory board: Location's too far though I'm very interested in the job scope, I can play with Excel ^^. Pay's too low to compensate for the higher transport cost and once in a month or so, I need to work on Sat to entertain any calls from outlets... 
  
• Govt link co.: They didn't offer me any position la...1st time ever, I went for the interview and not called up for 2nd interview...perhaps coz I put up a bit of argument when she mentioned that I didn't state that I'm studying part time. F**K her...I don't see a need and they didn't state that I can't apply if I’m studying...anyway, I have handled lots of OT when I studied part time previously...don't see a problem in her BIG reaction. As if I'm a scum...??? This is the one that sent me really thinking should i still be looking for an account assistant position???? Have I upgraded to higher position with my ACCA qualifications??

Then my friends started getting concern...I really wonder why out of sudden they started sms asking whether I have found a job in Aug...Not in Jul or Jun...Hmmm... 

• Fren A: Paying $120 to help her do her accounting assignment. (I can't believe that she actually outsourcing to work on her school project?! In the end, will she ever pick up any knowledge??? Well....she's that type of person, who act as if she knows the stuff, when put to test, she scramble everywhere for help and "take the credit"...) I don't like that... I like the money but I can't do it...my M.A sucks lor.
• Fren B: Her sis looking for someone to work on her accounts (for her small education biz). 1 year paying only thousand+...haha...no way am I taking it up lor. Firstly the pay is SUPER low, and then need to start from scratch. Seriously I do know bits & pieces of my accounting knowledge but I'm really don't have confidence in working from scratch...and pls paying ACCA soon-to-be graduate such low pay to get professional service...??? No way la, dude!~
  
• Fren C: Asking whtr I've found a job and would i be interested in a position at SFI, answering calls.... This one is the buffering one. Hey, are you my friend or not?? Seriously you don't know me well lor, or perhaps you're holding that position and u got a better offer, just need some scapegoat to take over the position so that you can take up the other offer…hey, pls la, I’m not the talkative one, and how would you think that I can actually handle a post that requires me to answer calls???? Might as well introduce me a telemarketer position. I don’t know what to say about this…
  
• Cousin: Keep telling me got this and that temp positions…keep asking me to send my resume to this and that job agency…need to quote that I’m XXX’s cousin… Aiyo~ please la, I don’t want a cheap low pay job just to kill time!!! Even if it’s temp, I also need it to be challenging mah! Really cannot take it le!!!

You are all freaking me out!!! Yes, I admitted that I am bored with sitting around the house doing nothing but surfing the internet all day! But please give me some space to breath…this is how I always ended up taking up position that sucks away my life…my spirit to fight, my determination, my aspirations… I’m not borrowing money from any of you and I am only sitting around in my house, why are you interfering what I do???? Not referring to my friends, but my cousin~ Every time I see her, she will do this, “send your resume to XYZ”, then my aunt whenever she hits my house, she will ask when are you finding a job huh?? I don’t understand lor…this is freaky…I’m stressed….give me some space~ I really am pressed to the edge~!!!!!

The kind of position that I want 

• Pays more than $1700
• Need not travel by bus (coz I’ve motion sickness)
• Position that allows me to play with Excel spreadsheet
• Not much administrative work…I wana do analysis…(not very impt criteria)
• Not managerial position (coz I wana be under the umbrella, being sheltered)
• Not too much OT, able to hit the road and head home at latest 7pm
• SAP, accounting software environment. I wana learn IT software
• No FULL set of accounts!
• Good benefits… ^___________________^
• Teamwork
• Can learn lots of things &^_________________________^&

Reasons:

• Shelter: I enjoy working under a good boss. He sets an example and is encouraging to know that there’s someone to share your problems with. =))
• No administrative coz I have been administrative role for the last 2.5 years (Swiss & PG). Sucks lor!~ They all spell boredom.
• Excel spreadsheet: I good at that. I want to keep my knowledge there.
• Pay: Well, I have 3 years of working experience (though irrelevant) but I deserve it lor. How dare you pay me peanuts (like fresh grad) and want me to work like pro?! Furthermore, I actual last drawn pay is more than $1700, if not because of that stupid contract position, my pay won’t have been lowered. 
• Full set of accounts: Seriously lor, no experience and my accounting knowledge is rusty lor. But if you want me well and the job interests me, I will dig out my knowledge…no worries.
• OT: Well, I have been through hell. Like Swiss, I have no life there lor. I can’t meet my friends’ coz I always need to be back in office to finish up the work. I’ve drifted far apart from them. Same for my family. PG, well, everyone gets to go home at 7.30 the least, why am I staying back as a contract staff and trying to churn out all the reports… a contract post should be very relax one mah!
• Benefits: I’ve seen the good benefits offered in good companies, so aiya, dun wana keep comparing you guys and others, so shut me up and give me the great benefits la!!!!
• Teamwork: *sob* When I was a contract at PG, I worked almost all the time alone, my managers are always somewhere in the office or they stacked me with so much work that I can hardly chat with anyone in the office….it’s a lonely position and my immediate manager thought that I enjoy working alone, facing the PC and not talking to people????!!! This is the most beautiful mistake I have ever come across. I do like working on my own but without any communication, I go nuts!!! Reason for not talking there coz I don’t wana build the bond and later having to leave this super boring nothing to learn position, then I’ll feel so sad to leave…and if don’t leave, it’s like my life is over liao lor! Low pay, unreasonable deadlines (out of sudden deadline), not much learning opportunity…sucks away my spirit lor.